Clean hands, clean hearts.

I've always been used to my nice hometown. Im used to my parents always being there for me, Im used to a small city where I am protected.

Today, it was different.

As I moved out of my house, to the city.. way larger than my home, and taking the Freeway being a normal thing here, I knew I was going to have to grow up sooner or later. I knew I was not going to have anyone hold my hand through every mistake I made in life...sometimes, I would have to deal with things on my own..like a big girl.

Today, I did just that.

I joined the PR club on campus, and in the middle of trying to get an event planned, I went downtown for some info. It being traffic hour on the roads, I decided to take the freeway. My ride through the Freeway was a smooth sail. But, as I was getting off on the exit near my apartment, I slammed into the car in front of me. Instantly, I knew I was to blame. Instantly, I get out of the car and checked my car, my beautiful car, the hood was a little dented up, and the front bumper was cracked in with a very noticeable hole. The cops were called, we did not file a report and we exchanged information.

Funny thing, the lady I crashed into has the exact birthday as me. I've never met anyone with my birth date. Another funny thing, shes a teacher and Im a student. She lives 3 minutes from the crash site, and so do I.

So, as I was holding it together, being the "adult" that I should be, and exchanging info, calling insurance companies, all I really wanted was my MOMMY. and my DADDY..

So, as Mr. nice Highway Patrol man leaves, the lady I crashed into and I got to work on fixing things.

And, finally , we are done.

So I say, " thank you for everything, I am so sorry this happened."

Really. truly, I felt like the most irresponsible typical college student on earth.

Her response was, "No problem, our insurances are going to fix this"

And, I quickly nodded and said, " yes, they are, but I truly am sorry"

Her response startled me, she said, " be careful next time. You're young, you're in school and you have things going for you in your life, you don't want to have an accident."

I smiled, and quickly got into my car.

I lost it. My three minute drive home seemed like a 3 hour drive home. It consisted of crying, and praying. I am so stressed with school and everything going on, that I forget to breath sometimes.

and I kept saying to myself , " suck it up Lisa, this is your fault."


And I complain how I'm so busy but I'm ok. Im lucky to have has such an understanding lady. I am lucky to have a nice roommate who offered me water and I was crying.

I could have hurt someone innocent, I could have hurt myself... I've never thought about the damages I could cause because of something so unexpected.

Today, I was forced to grow up and see things differently.

I was having such a good day too!

This is an eye-opener, and I thank God we are ok and that no one was hurt in any way.

But, I am still having a good day. I am still good, I am alive and I am well.

I am really blessed.