Stay silent, so silent...enough to hear the whisper of God.

As I sit here writing about this. I find it hard, and odd. Not because I have too many things to say, but because I can’t seem to find anything to say.

This blog topic is not anything that I am comfortable with.

I’d like to call myself a baby Christian ; I found God about a year ago, and I’m trying to hang on tight. But, I’m still not comfortable talking about God or how I feel about Him because I don’t exactly know how to put it.

But lets give this a try:

Sometimes, most of the time, I don’t know what the right way is to talk to God…so I find myself talking to God like a friend.. A friend I’m scared of..A friend I don’t want to disappoint, a friend that I love.

And I talk to God when I’m alone; while I lay in bed. Or I talk to Him when I’m surrounded by a lot of people and I need to shut them out.

But I also, find myself ignoring a lot of Gods warnings. And as of lately, my life is crazy. I can’t find the time to catch a break, and my mind is overly exhausted. And sometimes when I get a “ gut feeling” or a “ bad warning” that is all it is to me… but I need to pay attention, and focus and know that it is not just a feeling, but it is God. And he is trying to talk to me only sometimes, I don’t listen.. because he is too silent, and I need to learn to be patient.

So, as I talked to my friend, I she told me “ Lisa, you need to learn to hear the whisper of God.”

So I’ve decided that I am going to allow myself some time so that God and I can talk, and so that I can listen.

And maybe with His help, I can learn to become more comfortable with talking…and listening.

V-day

Let’s be honest , I’m sitting on my couch at my apartment with a friend. We are talking about Valentines Day and how much it is going to suck this year.

This year we broke up with our boyfriends.

This week, we stopped dating our potentials.

This Valentines Day we will be officially Date-less.

I mean, we could have waited until after V-Day to tell the boys its over, but if we’re being serious, we could not take another second of them.


So let’s assess the situation.

I don’t exactly know the history of V-day, but whoever thought of it sure had a good idea. A good idea that caught on

But I feel that if a man decides that he is going to take one night to treat the girl the way she is suppose to be treated everyday, then that is not a man worth having around. People get comfortable in situations, they forget how to open doors, how to be nice, how to go out of their way and show they care. But, if we make it a national holiday ( I don’t know if it’s official seeing as we don’t get the day off or anything, but its national so I guess that counts just as well.) then a guy suddenly remembers what it’s like to have a little chivalry.

So what is a girl to do?

Well that is still something I am trying to figure out. Last year, my friend called me and said, “ I hate today, I hate being single, and I hate that everyone is out on a date right now.”

Of course I ignored his childish manner, because, 1: I had a boyfriend and could not relate. 2: Boys that whine about something they can change upsets me.

But it got me thinking. I guess not all guys think of this as an OBLIGATION on their part.

But I really feel like I’m too much of a feminist to ever let a guy pay for EVERYTHING.

I like going Dutch sometimes… And I really hate when girls let guys pay for their expenses. Its cute once-in-a-while.. But it gets ridiculously old quick.

I think that is my main problem. Im caught in-between letting a guy go nuts on you for a day, and then having everything go back to normal.

So how do I really feel about this day? I have no idea.